Tuesday, November 13, 2007

LXVIII

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You may be wondering why I am so focused on sixty-eight this day. In '68 the best song was "Up, Up and Away" by the Fifth Dimension. How could we forget my beautiful, my beautiful balloon? Now the ubiquitous song of Safeways all over the nation. The best country song was "Ode to Billie Joe" while Billie Jean was kicking butt at Wimbledon. In '68 both Martin Luther King, Jr. and Robert Kennedy were assassinated. Andy Warhol was shot. Astroworld opened. The Republicans nominated Nixon & Agnew for their ticket. Ari Onaissis and Jackie "not yet O" Kennedy were married and Yale finally became co-ed. Lisa Marie Pressley and Vanilla Ice were born and the Boeing 747 made its maiden flight.

All of these events occured in '68.

Today I found out that my CA 27-29 is down to 68. I had another treatment on Friday that left me with a lot of bone pain but no nausea. Today I am feeling better and ready to go.

Please send your thoughts and prayers to Matt's Grandmother and the girl's great-Grandmother Ruth. She had a heart attack over the weekend and is currently in the CCU.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

and she danced in the rain....

and she danced in the rain....
and she danced in the rain....,
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"Life is not about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain. " It is still raining here, but there looks to be blue skies ahead.

A Living Will

Once diagnosed with BC at any good medical institution they are going to give you a ton of information. Swedish Cancer Institute is so wonderful. They mailed me about 3 pounds of useful material. Three books, many flyers and even a handy little tote for me to carry around all my new reading material.

Whether or not you answer "yes" to the questions, "Do you have a Will?" or "Do you have an advanced directive?" or "Do you have a Power of Attorney?" you are usually given a little pamphlet titled "Who will decide if you can't?" This is sort of a do-it-yourself health care directive. It is so DIY though that it is available in most pamphlet stands, at most medical centers right next to "How to eat a high fiber diet while on pain medication" or my very favorite, "What to do when you are feeling blue."

When I was filling mine out I was really unenthusiastic because it doesn't look at all like a binding legal document. As if someone is going to show up with this tri-fold at my bedside and the medical staff would immediately stop and say, "That's it, call it, she filled out the DIY pamphlet on the durable power-of-attorney! We're done here!"

I did take the time (about 30 seconds) to fill it out and stuck it on my desk. At the very least if my situation went so far downhill that Matt actually found himself in the position to have to make some horrible decision I felt like I had something in writing . I had also told enough people my desires that if one of the Bush family decided to jump in for my case (a la Terry Schiavo)at least I could line up family and friends on the steps of the State Courthouse in Olympia and they could vouch for me.

Well, today I received this email from my friend Stacey. She is a rock star and I find it humerous. In that I don't have a sister I suppose she would have to play the roll.

Thanks Stacey for being a true sister!


MY LIVING WILL .......


Last night, my sister and I were sitting in the living room and I said to

her, "I never want to live in a vegetative state, dependent on some machine

and fluids from a bottle. If that ever happens, just pull the plug."


She got up, unplugged the TV, and threw out my wine.


She's such a bitch.....